Halloween has just passed and Monday is my grandmother's birthday. She would have been 85 years old on Monday. She passed away in 2005 and these past 6 years have been some of the hardest years emotionally. Her husband, my grandfather moved in with us 2 months after her death so I really haven't had the chance to let it go and mourn. With every passing holiday, season, anniversary and new occasion, I am reminded how much my grandmother would have loved it and how time only makes dealing with her being gone harder for him. I was extremely close with my grandmother and it is with her that I started on my paranormal quest. Her house was haunted and I stayed there every weekend while I was growing up. She believed in the psychic world through her "premonitions." So I just assumed that when she passed away I would not lose touch with her. I knew she would prove to me that there is absolutely life after death.
Let me just say that I do get visits. They're not as often as I'd like nor are they of the "quality" that I would like. So I guess you can call me a greedy paranormal investigator. Christmas Eve was always the holiday she prepared for our family and now I have inherited the position. I fix the exact meal she always fixed and we do the exact same thing now as we did then. So Christmas Eve is a time I always get a visit. It's usually when I'm in the kitchen cooking. I can feel her presence and sometime smell her perfume, Tigress, which they do not make any more.
So what am I complaining about? Well, I'd sure like her to show up on my voice recorder once in a while (I'll go for once right now). Maybe some anomalies when I take pictures or maybe even just a full blown full body apparition. I'm not picky.
What I'd love to do is have concrete proof for my grandfather so that he can let go. He needs to let her go so she can go and heal and do what's next on her spiritual plate. I miss her and I love her, but I wouldn't want that Karmic mess of holding someone Earth bound.
So as you reflect this fall, which in nature is our preparation for the death of another cycle, think. Are you holding someone back? Are you holding someone captive in this Earth plane? How extraordinary would it be to know that you've let someone go free to do their next job. Don't hold anyone back - you don't need that Karmic dent in your fender!
